Monday, July 30, 2007

EXTREMITIES.......

I have never meant this blog to be a journal....but unwittingly my moods, my fears, my emotions etc have dribbled their way into it....

Incidents and events are of no importance in the bigger picture...they are to be treated as trivialities...if given undue importance, they morph in to disaster!
Well sometimes...when u want to numb the emotions u tend to focus on the event...and analyze its technicalities...the "hows" and "whats" instead of the "whys"...

This is easy to do....emotions and events are manageable when they take place at different intervals of time and are independent of each other....
But when lightning strikes from 4 directions at once, then it is impossible to not think "WHY"??? Rants of self-pity...like.... Why me?? Why now???
But like they say....If not YOU then WHO?? If not NOW then WHEN???

But if u look around closely....Emerge from your convoluted sense of the world and pay some attention...Keep your eyes and ears open....
You will realize...you definitely are not the only one....
Its literally "Kahaani Har life ki".....
and with time and experience I've also come to believe in the adage...
"That which doesn't kill you..only makes you stronger!"

So...I figure...Live...
Go Make Mistakes...and some more!!Fall...so that you can rise again.....all the wiser for the fall.....

But for those who understand the happier side of the world...
My perception of the world just gets weirder..

I live in happiness and despair all at the same time....Tremendously happy...making everyone who stays around laugh....and feel the twinkle of their happiness...let it invade ur being....
UNTIL...the other monster takes over....the sulky, sullen, irritable...near-clinical-depression self...which emerges to simply confuse the shit out of you!!

So effectively...I become...Happy...Depressed...Confused!!
Now Do I clinically qualify for psychosis???

Now answer me this....So...What is my mood today????

9 comments:

curryegg said...

I don't think you need a psychosis cos this is normal.. We face up and down all the time. All you need is a friend to talk with, speak out your problems. Sometimes, we don't need solution, just a good listener will do.. ;D

So, just be what you wanna be, feel what you wanna feel.. happy, sad, depress, dilemma... but there will be a limit.. Lol.. :D

nisha punjabi said...

guess u feeling philosophical today!
n i quite agree with u...these emtions shud not b analysed so much..a friend of mine recently called me insane for writing abt emotions a bit too often!!!

annie said...

Babe u oscillatin between the extremes.This way and then back that way.Happens so often to me, particulary nowdays.Di moment we feel solace, sumtin just pulls us down..I look up to those who say "High on Life!"...i really wanna know how..how??

vitruvian said...

@curryegg: yeah true..we face both ups and downs...in life...
and its noraml to feel all emotions within a limit...
but who decides that limit??
neway...as long as we r more happy than anything else...it's alrite...

@nisha: philosophical...i'm just trying to resolve my confusions philosophically....as in not treat them too seriously....
no as long as writing about emotions makes u happy and light...i dont think ur insane for doing it...
like when i write....and finish with the last sentence of the article or poem...i feel this happiness and relief rusj=hing in...so it works for me...

@annie: yeah...oscillating is the word...
and it takes only the silliest of things to change my mood...either ways...
i used to be..one of the ..."high on life" ppl..am on my way back there presently....
i suggest u join me....i could do with some company anyway... ;)

Ankit said...

thats some sound advice hidden in there.. and its 100% right on when u say.. ""Kahaani Har life ki"..... thats so true!

Answer to the question: a bit nostalgic n a bit confused..

keep smiling :)

annie said...

Sounds mast..u reach up there $ i'll start my climb soon..God knows, how long it will take me...cheerio!!

Floyd said...

I live in happiness and despair all at the same time....Tremendously happy...making everyone who stays around laugh....and feel the twinkle of their happiness...let it invade ur being....
UNTIL...the other monster takes over....the sulky, sullen, irritable...near-clinical-depression self...which emerges to simply confuse the shit out of you!!

Well said...

vitruvian said...

@ankit:hey..that was my analysis and opinion i expressed...and works for me...so i thot i shud share it...
yeah...it really is kahani har life ki!!
@annie:sure babe....will wait for u to catch up....
@PK:thank u...will it kill u to blog once in a way..

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